things I can never find when I'm looking for them

 stapler
scissors 

the right size bandaid

the thing for the thing

form I need in my glove compartment to show the guy or buy the replacement

exact page in the car owner's manual to fix it or understand it

social security card

other charger

good hand warmers

readers

freezie guy

my son's vaccine records

the name of that song I love so much

or movie

or actor

or thing that happened in the 80s

word document

email I need 

thing that attaches to the rug cleaner or vacuum 

paper to write down the phone number (confirmation number) you are giving me

instructions 

house repair paperwork/records

someone's business card that I desperately need, that would solve everything 

my son's dorm address

receipt for the

a reliable handyman

that old perfect tee shirt I used to love that I probably gave to Savers before I realized how good it was

Cerave hand stuff 

instructions for the thing that keeps breaking and I keep forgetting how to fix

the thing that was just right in front of me

the thought I was just about to tell you

community vegetarian dinners nearby

neighbors I can hang out with or at the very least talk to

vegetarian restaurant

sleep

50+ yoga class for idiopathically mobility restricted people who grieve their super limber old bodies

some kind of any kind of doctor or any kind of anyone who can fix it

the perfect comeback

my new best friend

my new community 

my new life

new therapist

friends from childhood

any trace of the hippie alternative school I went to as a kid

my memories

my dreams

the best day of my life

my infant son who is now 19 but still just one more day would be nice

old voice mails

the perfect anything

that bouncy neon cat toy that will occupy them for at least a short while

patience

poem I want to share with students and everyone

proof

the proof I said I had, 

said i wrote down

that elusive text that disappeared,

always disappears

myself before 2017

myself in general

my better slippers

a place in MN to go where I haven't been that's better than the North Shore

whatever it is I think I'm missing

time

more time

a longer day

foreverness